Hello & Goodbye

Have I mentioned that I love maggie? Yes, I do. So so much. It’s amazing how fast I built this bond. Looking forward to spending more days with maggie. =)

Haha, caught an episode of the noose with the BF the other day and they coined this term – stupid plus piak (slap) which makes “stupiak” – I found it super hilarious!

Anyway, as I mentioned, I have better things to do and that means… taking stupiak pictures of myself – cause I am that bored. Wahaha..

That’s just not me. Hide behind a facade, I don’t do – it has come back to bite me but I realised after hearing a not so good news that there are better things to do and worry about. What you and you said perhaps is right – but I didn’t get the message until I heard about the news. There I was bothered about some minute and pathetic issue and here’s some one close to me grappling with such news alone. The scales don’t balance up – my heart only have that little space to fill for people I should love and I should focus on them. I am emotionally spent but in future I will make sure it is only reserved for people who matters.

lots to think about. lots to say.

This feels so much like a written test for a job interview. For once, I’ve decided to do something about the empty promise I’ve made of spending my time wisely – i.e volunteering – but it is such an arduous task!

To apply, I have firstly filled out an online application form and have now received a questionaire where I have to answer a list of 10 questions – not yes/no/multiple choice questions but open-ended questions that would require me to think/reflect on my past experiences. Perhaps it is a way to filter those truly interested and those who are applying for the sack of applying but it is just a hassle for a procrastinator like me. Some questions like: Name 2 or 3 persons you think have had the greatest influence on your personal life and development. Describe briefly how you see that influence playing out in your life or What lessons did you learn from being a helper and being helped?

This is quite stressful! Anyway, procrastinate no more, I should at least have the draft by today for further review.

Back to racking my brains =)

Finally! One to call my own. At age 26.5 (or thereabouts), I finally have a laptop to call my own! Burnt a hole in my pockets, but it is well worth it! Thankfully, the brother is a Mac pro user and had me connected and up and ready to go.

This only means one thing – you will see more of me, me, me – like it or not. haha.

I have been granted a week’s break from my new boss but it’s funny how I wake up at 8 plus on most days – either awoken by my sister’s alarm clock or a need to drive the Bf to work. I guess it is good this way for I feel more fulfilled that I’ve gotten some things done on my to-do list.

Now – sleep is eluding me. it all boils to a cup of coffee – caffeine and I just don’t go well together. i hate it whenever it gives me sleepless nights like this, when your body craves sleep but your mind is in all places but dreamland.

I have always been a good sleeper – ie I can sleep anywhere, well almost anytime. what I dislike most though is when I am the last person to fall asleep. i also realized last night when the BF took an early night (for once) how much I hated it when he sleeps earlier than me. believe me, I actually felt kinda sad and lonely. it means I can’t call him and ka jiao him before I sleep.

see what caffeine does to me. blogging such a lame post. argh. I wanna see you zhou gong!!